To be honest this week has been shitty. I've had so much homework and been worrying about Brydie a lot <3 About two weeks ago my mum took her to the vet because she didn't seem as active as she normally is and wasn't eating as much. I thought it could be old age since she was nearly two but wanted to make sure incase anything else was wrong. The vet gave us vitamin drops to give her twice a day and also cut her teeth.

She did start to perk up a lot after that and started eating, climbing the bars, digging and going on her wheel but only for a night. I was afraid it was the big rise before the fall because that's what happened to Muppet. I felt absolutely hopeless because I was doing all I could to make her better, giving her softer food that'd be easy on her teeth, extra toilet paper and turning the heat up a bit more to keep her warm, giving her the drops and putting her food and water right outside her house. She looked to be getting better but then would only get up if I made her eat.

I'm so proud of her, she tried so hard. I felt useless, she seemed to have quite a bit of energy when she was awake but just wasn't interested in eating which made me really sad. I knew that hamsters don't have a long lifespan but I got really attached to her. It was terrible to see her gradually go downhill. I was with her last Tuesday when she died. I walked into the room and she was in her house on her side, I started bursting into tears because I couldn't bear the thought that she had died alone but then she moved her head twice which gave me a little bit of comfort. I'm so thankful that I got to know her and hope I gave her a good life. She was so beautiful and I'm really really really going to miss her. :Tears: I sat for three hours after that just stroking her and talking. Burying her was so hard. Coming into the house again without a hamster was one of the worst feelings ever. Empty cages suck! I'm glad I was with her when she died but I still feel lonely and miserable and like it was all my fault.

Bad manip of her I made D:
I only took a few pictures and they were with my old camera. Blurry ] ; I did blur some of the edges on purpose though because she's faded. I wish I could be an angel with her.